Monday, December 29, 2008

Our New Hobby

Zach and I have picked up a new hobby... professional photography. We received a Nikon DSLR camera for Christmas (Thanks to Zach's grandmother and mom!). For those of you that may not know what this camera is, it is basically a low-end professional camera. Zach has been more intrigued by it than I have (the reason being that I have been sick), and has taken some great shots! So I cannot give myself credit for any of these photographs, but I wanted to share!

Some shots of Ellie with her new toys:

This last one is of Ellie is playing with a toy that is supposed to motivate her to crawl :)

A beautiful Christmas shot of my mom's decorations and tree:


And lastly some shots Zach took of downtown Winston-Salem:

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Remembering Mary

"Now the birth of Jesus Christ took place in this way. When his mother Mary had been betrothed to Joseph, before they came together she was found to be with child from the Holy Spirit."Matthew 1:18

Have you ever pondered how Mary felt? A virgin, pregnant. What a woman of faith she must have been, of course God knew that... He wouldn't have just chosen anyone to raise His son.

"A Baby Changes Everything":



This baby changed everything...

The Meaning of Christmas

You have read quite a few blog posts from Zach the past few weeks, and none from me... I know you have missed hearing about Ellie! Well the reason why I have been MIA is because Ellie and I have been sick. I'm not quite sure if we have recovered yet... but we both definitely feel better. Zach arrived home on December 11 to both of his girls coming down with a cold. Ellie ended up having 3 doctor visits within 8 days, life has definitely been hectic these past few weeks. The first visit was on Friday (the 12th) to diagnose her with a cold, the second on Tuesday to diagnose her with a double ear infection, and the third on Thursday to ease our concern with her temperature dropping to 96 degrees most nights. We definitely had many nights of worrying and casting those worries to God through prayer, and we are so thankful that it has only been mild illnesses.

I haven't given you much of an update on Ellie. She definitely is the cutest and happiest baby around! Alright, I might be a little biased, but she truly is such a joy in our lives. Everyday we are so amazed by how much love we have for this child, and how blessed we are to have a healthy, happy baby. She still is not crawling, rolling, or walking... but this is nothing we are concerned about. We know most of this immobility is from her not spending much time on her belly since she screams every time we put her on it. She loves to stand and pull up by grabbing onto our fingers, so we do know she is progressing. She actually has been taking steps while holding onto our hands, so she might just skip the whole crawling phase... that won't bother me! I absolutely love how I can still just sit her on the floor and she will be in the same spot when I leave the room and come back. She also has been saying 'da da' a lot the past month. She has been jabbering here and there, I love it though when she talks and we can't keep her quiet!

Thankfully we have been able to get our Christmas shopping done with hardly any stress and are now visiting family in Kernersville and Winston-Salem. This Christmas season, I have reflected a lot about the meaning of Christmas... not so much because I am remembering Christ's birth, but because I am forgetting it. When asked the question, 'What is your first thought when you think about Christmas?', what is your answer? My answer struck me because mine probably would not be Christ's birth. It is so easy to think of Christmas as being a time to give, a time to come together as family, a time to decorate, shop, and bake. Christmas was meant to be 'the holy day' which we know as holiday. It isn't about coming together as family or giving and receiving gifts. How much more Christmas really is... how it symbolizes something that we cannot hardly fathom and something so miraculous. It is a time meant to remember this miracle and the greatest gift we have ever been given. Here is a video that I got from one of my favorite blogs, girltalk, that reminds us and helps me reflect on the true meaning of Christmas:
(it might be a little long, but definitely worth watching... trust me, you should make time for this)

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Favorite Books of 2008

As the end of the 2008 approaches it appears to be common practice in the blogosphere to write a post of your favorite books from the year so that is what I have done. Below you will find a list (in no particular order) of my favorite books with a very short synopsis.

Too Busy not to Pray - Bill Hybels - This is a phenomenal book written by a great pastor. The book gives some of the most practical advice on prayer I have ever heard. The book goes through some fundamental truths of the Gospel related to prayer including: What kind of God do we pray to?, why pray?, does prayer really work?, what hampers our prayer? and finally He gives us a great model to follow in our prayer life. The goal of the book is help those how struggle to maintained a disciplined prayer life through encouragement and some very practical advice. Its a great read and I highly suggest it.


The Abolition of Man - C.S. Lewis - This is a very short book by C.S. Lewis but in terms of theological and philosophical truth its weight must be measured in tons. The purpose of the book is to form an argument against the subjective nature of the intellectual culture of his time. What's so great about this book is that it is message is timeless and has never been more applicable than it is today. Lewis makes a convincing argument that the death of objective law and morality will ultimately result in the abolition of man because the man with the most temporal power have the ability to impose his own subjective law on "weaker" individual thus rendering them powerless. One of the most influential books related to apologetics and absolute truth.


East of Eden - John Steinbeck - This is probably my favorite literary work of all time. Its a bit on the long side (600 pages) but its impossible to put down after you read the first 50 pages. East of Eden is a complex and layered retelling of the story of Cain and Able found in Genesis. Though the book has an engaging and well formed plot, I think Steinbeck deserves the most praise for his character development. Throughout the book you notice that he is gradually developing each one of the characters to reveal their true heart. There are no archetypes, each character is thoroughly "normal" and Steinbeck shows each of their motives throughout the story.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

AWESOME GIVEAWAY

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Friday, December 12, 2008

The Uncomfortable Christmas

As the Christmas season is already upon us and Christmas day is soon approaching I am particularly concerned about one issue...Santa. As a family, Laura and I are trying to decide whether or not to tell Ellie about Santa (Laura is in favor and I am opposed). There are reasons for and there are reasons against but none of them seem to sway me to make a definitive statement contrary to my current opinion. Because of this I am thoroughly uncomfortable this Christmas in respect to how we celebrate it with Ellie, to that end I am also extremely thankful that she will only be about 9 months old and probably won't remember it so I have another year to stall in case we don't make up our minds.

I am well aware that regardless of decision, culture, school, family, and friends will all tell Ellie about Santa and I am OK with that but I (just me, not Laura) am not comfortable making it a part of our immediate families tradition for a couple of reasons. Lets take a look at what message Santa conveys to children...

1) Santa is omnipresent - Maybe not omnipresent but at least he possesses special abilities so that he can go to every single house in the entire world in a single night.

2) Santa is omniscient - He knows every good or bad deed you have done all year.

3) He judges children on their works - The quality and quantity or presents (rewards) each child gets is based on how good he/she was this year.

4) He answers petitions - Children may ask Santa for anything they want and he uses his discretion to determine if the child is worthy.

Perhaps I'm being pedantic but Santa sounds a lot like a god figure, he even has some characteristics of God and this is troubling. What are the potential consequences of telling a little kid about Santa you may be asking. The problem isn't when the child is 2 or 3 but when they turn 8 or 9. An 8 year old is absolutely capable of understanding the gospel to a point where they can trust Christ as their savior but may not have a complete theological grasp of the character of God. Now, to that child the characteristics of Santa seem very similar to the characteristics of God and they may not be able to make the distinction between God-attributes and Santa-attributes. Suddenly the child thinks God judges us and blesses us based on our performance rather than out of the grace we have through the glorification of Christ through his death and resurrection.

But Zach, Santa is good for kid's imaginative development you may say. I agree that Santa-like figures may have the ability to make a child's imagination run wild with fantastic ideas and adventures. This is great. My question to you would be, what's wrong with my kids imagination the rest of the year? We don't talk about Santa any time during the year except December. If you are the exception to that statement then you are probably using Santa as a bargaining tool to get your kids to behave and that is just wrong. All year long children play with imaginary friends and dream up awesome adventures, they don't loose this ability because its Christmas.

But Zach, Santa represents love you say again with growing disdain for this blog. Perhaps this is true if that's what you have taught your children but couldn't we simply explain that God is love and he became flesh to prove it and that we give gifts to show others how much we love them and to reflect that same love? Don't tell me explaining how a fat guy with reindeer can go to every house in the world in a single day is easier than telling your kids simply God loves us and this is one way we celebrate.

Don't be mistaken, I don't think anyone is a bad parent for telling their kids about Santa and I certainly don't think you should avoid Santa but perhaps Santa should be more of a festive figure like pumpkins are for Halloween. I just think our official Christmas celebration should be more Christ centered. Every child will probably believe Santa to some extent because he is so popular in our culture, there is no need for us to reinforce or encourage that belief in our home.

Despite the contentious tone of this post, the verdict is still out I am open to hear any argument. for or against

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Yummy Suckers

Ellie tried her first sucker... don't worry it's her one and only as of right now :)


Thursday, December 4, 2008

You Don't Care About This

If you read Slate today you may have noticed a piece entitled, Bringing Brutal Back. The piece is about the architect Paul Rudolph. The long and short of the article is that Rudolph's architectural style could be making a comeback...at least at Yale. About a third of the way down there is the following quote:
Yet by the time of his death in 1997, Rudolph was all but forgotten. What happened? In a word, taste—changing taste. By the 1970s, Postmodernism had introduced wit and irony to architecture, neither of which interested the serious Rudolph, whose brand of heroic monumentalism now struck many people—and many potential clients—as bombastic.
Suffice it to say that the irony postmodernism brought to style was surly not witty. Postmodernistic style is completely indifferent to questions of consistency, context, or continuity. It self conscientiously splices genres, attitudes and styles without reason. Wit expresses a certain intellect. Therefore, as stated above, postmodernistic style may be ironic in the sense that it produces something with traits that you wouldn't expect but there is nothing witty about those ironic characteristics. Though there are examples of postmodernistic architecture that are extremely impressive, as a general rule they are random, out of context, and simply overbearing. The problem with the quote about Rudolph''s architecture is that it makes no sense.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

The Souls of Black Folks

Let me begin by saying that I hesitate to publish this post and I reserve the right to remove it at any time. My fear is that if I may come off as a dilettante. These are personal thoughts and carry no more weight than what you give them.

In an effort to broaden my literary horizons I have devoted several of the next few books I plan to read to the categories of classical literature and history. Currently I am reading The Souls of Black Folks by W.E.B Du Bois. In a, I believe, providential turn of events I am also working through a series of American history podcasts. While reading Du Bois I am also learning about the period of reconstruction in those podcasts. What can I really learn from a book published 105 years ago or what can I learn from some history lectures I heard in 11th grade? These were the questions in my mind when I started this recent endeavor and I am so glad I have been patient through the process.

Almost 1 month ago to the day many of us sat in our homes watching what was one of the most amazing events in American history, the election of next President, Barack Obama. We saw images of thousands gathered in Grant Park in Chicago, we saw one of the foremost leaders of the civil rights movement (Jesse Jackson) crying, and we heard two amazing speeches, one from each candidate.

What was the big deal? Would people be crying if John Mcain won? I doubt it, maybe, but I doubt it. So, what was the big deal? If you move past the anger the right has for the left and the disrespect the left has for the right then there is a bigger issue. We elected an African American to be the President of the United States. Many are saddened by who that African-American was but all the same, we elected an African-American.

We were told that this is a historic event but most of us (white middle class, me) didn't get it. I knew its was good thing to show we could elect a non-white President but it wasn't that big of a deal ro me because I'm not racist, I just liked the other guy. I'll vote for a African-American, a Chinese-American, or any other race if they show me they are committed to my values and my issues.

Though this may be the view that a lot of Americans hold, it isn't what many others experience. Growing up in white suburbia I knew that if I wanted to do better than my parents I had to be more educated than my parents. I had to learn from the mistakes they made. My family isn't dumb but I am the first person in my immediate family to go to college right after high school, thats a progressive step in our families history. To many Americans, especially many African-Americans that step isn't possible, or at least it feels impossible. We know slavery in its historical form is dead but to many Americans, most of them African-Americans, a form of slavery still exists. In the poorest most poverty stricken and crime infested neighborhoods in American there are thousands of African-Americans who feel enslaved to a system that showed no signs of weakness until November 4, 2008.

A two parent home where both parents work 10 hour days, 6 days a week at minimum wage makes about $36k a year after taxes. At that rate there is barley any money left to save for college, buy the kids a car, make discretionary purchases like BOOKS or new clothes. Now imagine that the schools in those neighborhoods are below average (like many are) and that in an effort to help the family out the oldest kid gets an after school job. Here is a situation where a child is subject to same life his parents had to live because his school wasn't all that great and all he knew was the family needs some extra cash. The school isn't that good because most good teachers don't want to work there, I don't blame them. The after school job left very little time for studying which makes scholarships almost out of the question and the kid has probably never been encouraged to go to college because he has never known anyone to go to college so he doesn't apply because the $100 application fee is actually next months groceries. He can't pull himself up by his own book straps because he doesn't own any boots or if he does the straps are broken. He grows up, gets married, and is living the same life his parents lived. He never did anything bad, never broke the law, never made any huge mistakes, he just lived the life he had and now his kids are doing it again. The difference this time is minimum wage hasn't kept up with the cost of living in the neighborhood and the price of oil is up around $140 a barrel and that means almost $4/gal gas which is 2.5 times higher than last year and his wife got sick so now he doesn't have good insurance and is strapped with rising costs and hospital bills so his kids pitch in to keep the family in shape. The cycle starts again.

I paint a bleak picture here and in most cases it isn't that bad but this happens everyday. Sometimes people are to blame for their own circumstances but sometimes their situation is a product of the environment they grew up in. The question you should be asking is why? and How did it become this way? This is where W.E.B Du Bois and my American history podcasts come in. Reading The Souls of Black Folks and listening to these lectures made me think about how far African-Americans have come in 150 years but then I thought back to the election night and the faces I saw were not faces of people who thought this was just another election, they were the faces of people who knew this was a big deal. They knew what that cycle felt like and they were, unfortunately I have to say it, given hope by Barack Obama. Many of them probably lived on the South side of Chicago, which I have been to and can attest that it isn't a good place to grow up. Some of them probably lived in Cabrini-Green which I have also been to and can tell you it isn't the place I would want to raise my children. The issue here isn't how to address poverty and present education opportunities, though they are important and we should do those things. The purpose of this blog is explain some of the historical factors that have been the burden on the African-American race and have created some of the situations we see today. As a disclaimer, I am neither a historian nor a civil rights activist but I think understanding is the foundation to all progress. I believe the cycle I described above is in some part, a major part I believe, the residual affects of the racism we all remember from the 1950's and 1960's. Below are a few historical events that I think significantly contributed to that racism and thus brought us to where we are today.

1) The Assassination of Abraham Lincoln in 1865 - Everyone knows this was a set back to ending slavery but few know why. I believe the historical effect of Lincoln's death was two fold. The first effect, a symbol of freedom was gone. We all know who debilitating it can be to loose the leader of a cause you believe in. The second effect was that the Vice President, Andrew Johnson (D), became President. Lincoln, a republican, had chosen Johnson in an effort to build consensus about his administration but unfortunately Johnson was an absolutely awful President. As part of reconstruction he began appointing legislators and politicians to run the seceded southern states. Unfortunately most every Johnson appointee favored "Black Codes" which were the precursors to the Jim Crow laws of the 20th century and Johnson felt that a national civil rights law would infringe upon the rights of the states. He was amazingly forgiving to leaders of the seceded states, probably because Johnson didn't appose slavery. He opposed secession but not slavery.

2) The fall of the "Freedman's Bank" in 1874 - The "Freedman's Bank" was an institution dedicated to the building of wealth for and improving the economic status of newly freed slaves. Around 1870 the Freedman's Bank, under total mismanagement, began making poor decisions investing in risky business propositions and Real Estate (sound familiar?). Eventually the bank fell in 1874 and the majority of an entire peoples accumulated wealth was lost. This instilled a great amount of distrust and skepticism in both financial and governmental institutions which contributed to the long term lack of economic status improvement for former slaves.

3) The Compromise of 1877 - The was an informal agreement between Rutherford B. Hayes and Samuel Tilden. The Election of 1876 was extremely close (Al Gore v. George Bush close) and in return for Tilden conceding the election, Hayes would remove all Union (Northern) troops from the former Confederate (Southern) states. As a result of this, the southern legislatures began passing more and more stringent "Black Codes" and there was no force to quail the social indignation former slave owners and confederate soldiers had toward former slaves.

4) Plessy v. Ferguson in 1896 - This is the Supreme Court decision we all know as "Separate but Equal". This needs very little explanation. Segregation was now legal. This meant that the legislature could formally impose restrictions on African-Americans given they were afforded "equal" alternatives. This idea wasn't wholly rejected. Booker T. Washington firmly embraced this idea in the Atlanta Compromise as a stepping stone for black people to slowly be assimilated into white culture while building economic independence...it didn't work very well. Separate but Equal was the de jure standard for the treatment of African-Americans until 1954.

5) Jim Crow Laws 1876-1965 - Despite the Emancipation Proclamation, the 13th, 14th, and 15th amendments Jim Crow laws were extremely suppressive to African-Americans until the Civil Rights Act of 1964 and the Voting Rights Act of 1965. Even after these major events racism was prevalent in America until the 1970's.

I believe these major events in history occurred at the right times to where we are still seeing the plight of African-Americans and racism more than 150 years after the Emancipation Proclamation. These events were devastating blows not only to former slaves but also generations of former slave's children's fight for equality.

Im not sure if I said anything worth reading but I feel that if we better understand some of the historical causes which made the election of an African-American such a big deal then we are taking steps in the right direction to making it not a big deal.

Monday, November 24, 2008

"Soul of Modesty"

1 Timothy 2:9
"...women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control..."

Yesterday I listened to a sermon by CJ Mahaney on modesty. This subject is something that is difficult to face, especially in a culture where the motive of fashion designers is sensual provocation. What led me to this sermon was a survey on modesty (you can look at the survey results by clicking on the link). This survey first asked women to send in their questions and then Christian men answered the questions. Some women, specifically young women, are ingnorant on this topic. They don't understand or know the war against lust for men and the effect of our bodies on the mind of men. I felt like I had somewhat of an understanding but I was alarmed by some of the responses and felt like it meant I should just wear a cloak. However I knew this was NOT an option and it made me a little frustrated (can men not just stop thinking??). Why do we have to sacrifice because of men and their sinfulness?

WOW... was I being selfish or what?! While listening to the sermon I was very convicted about this topic. Mahaney began and primarily focused on the intention of the heart. What really struck me was the question, "What motivates your shopping and purchase of clothes?" Was my motivation to show grace and beauty of womanhood, to reveal a humble heart devoted to worshipping God OR was it to call attention to myself and flaunt my beauty, or to attempt to allure men sexually(in this case I would only want to allure my husband... but wearing the same thing in public would allure other men)? I can't tell you what my motive officially was... but I can tell you I was NOT ever thinking about how the way I dressed reflected my heart. My wardrobe is the statement of my personal and private motivation, and I feel that most of the time I'm shopping to impress others or get positive attention and not to show my humble heart.

Most of us know that modesty is the avoidance of clothing and adornment that is extravagant, showy, revealing or sexually inticing, but Mahaney described modesty as humility expressed in dress, a desire to serve others (specifically men). This definitely changed my mind set. I should be humble as Christ was humble, I need to stop thinking selfishly and serve others, not myself. I still can look cute and stylish, but my motivation while shopping isn't to impress others but to display my beauty humbly as one who is devoted to God. Therefore as a result of this conviction I will be more intentional about evaluating my motives while shopping and I will definitely be going through my wardrobe and tossing out some items...

I thought I would share what I have learned and also challenge those Christian women who read this blog. Some questions that Mahaney posed to help realize where your heart is on this subject of modesty are:
-What statement do your clothes make about your heart?
-Is your shopping and purchase of clothes informed and governed by modesty and self-control? (i.e. Do you take God to The Gap?)
-Whose attention do you desire and whose approval do you crave?
-What statement is your hair and attire making?
-Who inspires your dress, biblical women or Halle Berry?

Monday, November 17, 2008

New Twitter Gadget

You guys may notice that there may be some fairly odd changes to the right side of our blog. This is a new feature we added called Twitter. Twitter is one of the hundreds of social networking technologies that have become really popular over the last couple of months. Basically, Twitter is a a way to send short updates or thoughts throughout the day. Twitter users can follower other twitter users and we have added a feed so that anyone can view out "tweets" from our blog without having to register on Twitter.com

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Friendship in the Making

Tonight we captured only the beginning of the friendship between Ellie and Hannah Hamaker (a 2 year old from our church small group):



Ellie wasn't quite used to spending time with 2 year olds, so this is how it ended:

Good To Be Home

This past week Ellie and I went to Winston-Salem/Kernersville to help Zach's grandmother after having knee surgery. It was great to be with family, but with Ellie teething it did get rough at times. One morning I decided to get up and make muffins but Ellie would not let me out of her sight without screaming. Therefore I ended up making muffins with Ellie on my hip... that definitely made me feel like a housewife.

We got some great quality time with Gigi (Zach's grandmother), Grandma T (Zach's mom), and Nana (my mom). Grandma T took Ellie shopping and got Ellie her new favorite toy, a worm that plays music. It is so much fun to watch her while the toy plays music, she bounces with the beat... love it :) Ellie also has gotten the cutest outfits I have ever seen this week. One is a beautiful sweaterdress from BabyGap Nana spent many days trying to complete, and the other is an adorable shirt, jeans, and sparkly shoes from Grandma T. I will definitely post some pictures of these as soon as I capture them... you probably haven't seen anything cuter than Ellie in these outfits (I know I haven't)!

It sure is great to be back home in Raleigh though... but don't worry grandparents, we will back next week for Thanksgiving!

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Green Beans

Ellie tried green beans... we received the funniest reaction ever. You must watch:

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

"We Don't Live for Politics"

Occasionally this thought comes across my mind, 'What is going to happen to our country once the new president takes over, is our country going to survive?' However, there is no need to worry because my confidence in the future does not rely on our future president... but in Christ. John Piper helped me come to this conclusion in this clip from his website desiringGod.org:

WE VOTED!

Zach and I voted early and luckily missed any lines! It felt good to get the vote behind us, but I'm not looking forward to the result. I'm not very excited about either presidential candidate, but am excited not to see any more campaign ads!

So we got a few shots of Ellie's first voting experience:


As you can tell, she wasn't very happy either about the election... but she was happy about getting a 'I voted' sticker:

Monday, November 3, 2008

Ellie's Dedication


Yesterday, Zach and I were commissioned as parents to raise our little Ellie in a God-centered home and show her the ways of the Lord. This is such a huge role we have and one that should not be taken lightly. Our prayer is that we will continually delight in the Lord so that we can represent Christ to Ellie through the overflow of our hearts. In Deuteronomy 6:5-9, God commands us:
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates."

We pray that we will listen to this command he gives us. Ellie is a gift from God, she is HIS child... and we are so thankful to be given this opportunity to raise her and love her. We want Christ to be the leader of her life and we only want to be the ones who direct her to her true Father.

Our pastor, J.D. Greear shared with us his thoughts about this role we have been given...
"Our culture teaches us to give our kids experiences. God's Word teaches us to give them relationships. Your relationship with your child will be the most formative influence on their character. And it is their character that will determine their destiny. So don't let anyone or anything raise your children or influence your children more than you do. That means TV, media, games, friends, school systems, government or any other force. You shape them. You love them. You spend time with them. The greatest gift you can leave your children is not an inheritance of material things, but an inheritance of time invested in them over their lifetime."

Wow... what a HUGE role we have. What truth is in J.D.'s statement... we must remember this daily. Zach and I ask that you will pray for us and be partners with us as we take this role as parents. We know that we won't be able to conquer this without prayer.

Friday, October 31, 2008

Our Reformed Tradition

Today, October 31st, we not only celebrate Halloween but also the Reformation. 451 years ago today Martin Luther nailed his 95 thesis to the Castle Church door in Wittenburg. This may seem like an insignificant event to us today but a quick glance at history shows us how monumental an event this really was. Because of the Reformation we no longer have to pay indulgences to obtain forgiveness of our sins, we have freedom to read the written Word of God in our own language, and it produced some of our greatest church fathers (Martin Luther, John Calvin, John Knox).

The first of the 95 thesis is incredibly poignant:

Our Lord and Master Jesus Christ, when He said Poenitentiam agite [Repent Ye], willed that the whole life of believers should be repentance.

Tim Keller writes about this:
On the surface this looks a little bleak! Luther seems to be saying Christians will never be making much progress. But of course that wasn't Luther's point at all. He was saying that repentance is the way we make progress in the Christian life. Indeed, pervasive, all-of-life repentance is the best sign that we are growing deeply and rapidly into the character of Jesus.
He continues:
But in the gospel the purpose of repentance is to repeatedly tap into the joy of our union with Christ in order to weaken our need to do anything contrary to God’s heart.
Be encouraged then, fellow believer. In calling you to daily repentance, the Lord Jesus is not simply giving you good advice. He is saying, "If you are a child of mine, you must continue to repent."

Many doctrines have deep roots in the Reformation but I think John Calvin's explanation of our salvation and the role we play in God's glorification is one of the most Biblically sound and fundamentally important in Church history. Here Calvin makes no attempt to obfuscate what could potentially be controversial because he has grasped the heart of the issue of our salvation; We have salvation through our faith in God's gracious sacrifice of Christ and his resurrection as propitiation for the purpose of His own glory. Below is a summary of what Calvin said.

Total Depravity - Sin has affected all parts of man. The heart, emotions, will, mind, and body are all affected by sin. We are completely sinful. We are not as sinful as we could be, but we are completely affected by sin and as a result separated from God.(Rom 3:9-18, Ephesians 2:1, 3,15, Rom. 6:6,14-20, 2 Tim. 2:26, Mark 7:21-23)

Unconditional Election - God does not base His election on anything He sees in the individual. He chooses the elect according to the kind intention of His will without any consideration of merit within the individual. Nor does God look into the future to see who would pick Him. Also, as some are elected into salvation, others are not. (Rom. 8-28-33, Ephesians 1:4-8, Rom 9:9-11, Rom 9:15,21)

Limited Atonement - This is concerned with the question of what did Christ do on the cross. It was there that he redeemed, justified, reconciled, and atoned for His chosen people. The debate on this issue is over the extent of the atonement. Did Christ die for all people, or just a few? If it is for all then the efficacy and efficiency of the cross is limited. If it is for a select people, then Jesus Christ’s death actually saves. This point is closely connected with the Reformation’s War Cry, “We are justified by faith alone!” (Matt 26:28, John 17:9, John 11:51-52, Rev 5:9, John 10:16, Hebrews 9:28)

Irresistible Grace - When God calls his elect into salvation, they cannot resist. God offers to all people the gospel message. This is called the external call. But to the elect, God extends an internal call and it cannot be resisted. This call is by the Holy Spirit who works in the hearts and minds of the elect to bring them to repentance and regeneration whereby they willingly and freely come to God. (Rom. 9:19-21, John 6:64-65, John 6:65, 1 Corinth. 1:23-24)

Perseverance of the Saints - You cannot lose your salvation. Because the Father has elected, the Son has redeemed, and the Holy Spirit has applied salvation, those thus saved are eternally secure. They are eternally secure in Christ. (John 6:47, Rom. 8:1, John 10:27-28, 1 Corinth. 10:13, Phil. 1:6)

Happy Halloween!

Ellie dressed up as tigger... Zach and I dressed up as, well, ourselves. Ellie was definitely the cutest tigger around. We went around our cul-de-sac to show her off. Here are some pictures:

(Notice the nice carved pumpkins)

(Some of our cute neighbors)

Monday, October 27, 2008

New Title

We are thinking about a new Blog title...something a little more interesting...we are taking input from our readers...winner get the laudable and auspicious prize of being given credit in our next post.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Happy Birthday, Jerk

This has absolutely nothing to do with me, my family or anything I remotely care about but it is absolutely the funniest commentary on what I noticed as I approached graduation in college. Perhaps its humor is a result of what is a rarely commented on yet ALWAYS noticed phenomenon.

"There are three approaches to ordering at a birthday dinner. I actually didn't know that the first approach was possible until this particular outing. Early in the evening, I noticed Simon's friend Justin, a legendarily frugal graduate student, engage our waiter in an extended colloquy. After dinner, I sidled up to Justin to complain about the exorbitant bill, knowing my outrage would fall on sympathetic ears. Instead, he flashed a wicked grin and revealed that he had "seceded from the check, Jefferson Davis-style." That is, having realized things were getting out of hand, he had worked out an understanding with the waiter whereby he would order on a separate tab that would include only his appetizer, entrée, and beverages. It was a brilliant stroke, though it required Justin's unabashed cheapskatedness, which, like his taste in metaphor, is rare indeed.

On to the more subtle approaches. The first is to order as inexpensively as possible, in an attempt to foster a norm of fiscal conservatism at the table. This strategy is rarely successful. You order a house salad and the chicken and roll the dice that the guy next to you will feel too embarrassed to order an entrée called "steak for two." Such restraint cannot be counted on in a large, salary-diverse group.

The other approach, the one I favor, is to order offensively. Your typical birthday dinner is around 10 guests strong. Given a group of this size, you can safely assume there will not be an itemized accounting of who ordered what come bill-paying time—it requires too much math and is usually adjudged to be not in keeping with the celebratory nature of the event. Armed with this knowledge, the only way to order is with abandon. If I'm going to be subsidizing the sybaritic corporate lawyer at the end of the table (who, I happen to know, wouldn't think of ordering a beer unless it was brewed by a Trappist monk), you'd better believe he's going to be paying for a tract of my baked Alaska.

I developed this system after too many birthday dinners where I went home poor and hungry. This way, at least, you get the food you want. But the victory is pyrrhic. Tradition holds that the birthday boy make a perfunctory swipe at the check before it's whisked from his grasp. In the case of Simon's party, not only was the man of honor off the hook for his portion of the bill, but at the suggestion of a chivalrous spendthrift who I'd have kicked in the shin had the table not been so vast, the group exempted Simon's girlfriend as well, since she'd undertaken the arduous task of sending out the Evite. A check that would have been a hardship split 12 ways now was to be split by 10.

Simon is one of my oldest and dearest friends; I like to think I'd do just about anything for him. But sitting here looking at a charge for $168.51, I find myself wondering how good a friend he really is. $168.51! Do you know how many Uno's individual deep-dish Spinoccolis that would buy? Seventeen. That's two-plus weeks of dinner.

In a way, though, it is I who owe Simon. The piles of jumbo shrimp floating on seas of melted ice; the untouched beds of creamed spinach; the endless rounds of marked-up Beck's Dark—they flash before me now whenever a birthday dinner invitation comes my way, and I can't bring myself to RSVP yes. The excesses of Simon's dinner were what I needed to find the social gumption to swear off such affairs entirely. Throwing a party for your birthday? I'll gladly attend the festivities. Point me to the bowling shoes and buy me a few frames. Cook me dinner—I'll bring the Taboo. Otherwise, see you next year, pal."

Sunday, October 19, 2008

6 Month Check Up

Ellie went to the doctor on Wednesday for her check-up. She weighed in at 16 lbs. 4 oz. (50 percentile), measured 25 in. long (20 percentile), and was in the 70 percentile for her head circumference. So it looks like we have a baby that is short but smart since her head's so big! Everything checked out well and she received all her immunizations plus a flu shot! The poor thing had 4 shots in her legs and one oral immunization. She does very well and stops crying as soon as I pick her up. We are so blessed to have such a healthy baby, I don't think we realize that enough.

Here are some extremely cute videos of Ellie:

This first one is me walking in on her while she plays this game with herself. What she does is pulls the blanket over her head and pulls it back down, it's basically playing peek-a-boo with herself! Of course she gets distracted by the camera, but I get some giggles and coos out of her:



This next video is of Ellie eating something she doesn't like. I have so much fun feeding her because she gets the funniest expressions on her face. In this video I had prepared just plain oatmeal and she did not like it! Watch how funny she is:


And a picture I caught of the same thing:

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Ravens and Sparrows and Lillies Oh My

Right now im at Atlanta's Hartsfield-Jackson Internation Airport sitting on a wooden bench which im sure will be the source of many years of back pain to come. Two benches over I overheard a middle aged gentleman ranting about the failures of the government to do its job and protect the American people, this was because year-to-date his 401k was down 31%. "How am I supposed to retire at 65 in this market? I'm going be working until I can't walk. I swear if this doesn't turn around soon we are moving to Canada" the man explained very loudly to whom I assume was his wife.

Last night, not coincidentally, I read Luke 12 and Matthew 6 and today I also read what is a phenomenally well written critique of John Piper's book Future Grace, both of which address the issue the guy beside me and millions of other people are dealing with right now. Luke 12:24-24 says:
Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither store-house nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
In Piper's book, from what I understand b/c I haven't actually read it, he makes the case that anxiety will practically do nothing for you and he makes the argument, over several chapters, that we need to have faith in future grace rather than merely reflecting on the past and taking an indebted posture towards God. Piper explains that it is an affront to God feel like we owe Him something while not having faith in His grace to come. This would be tantamount to receiving a new car from your parents for Christmas and handing them a few bucks because you wanted to show your appreciation...it lacks a true understanding of what a gift, in the case of your parents, and what grace, in the God's case, truly means. Don't be confused, we DO owe Christ our lives because they were purchased for a price (1 Corinthians 6:20), but fundamentally our anxiousness says that we don't trust God to provide for us. It is in fact a type of unbelief. I'm not throwing condemnation around; I'm just trying to say (as Piper has already) that when we reflect on the workings of God in our life the best way to respond is not to feel indebted but rather to continue to have faith that the same grace we see in our past is also in our future.




Monday, October 13, 2008

Ellie's Half Birthday

Ellie is 6 months old! I cannot believe how fast time is flying. One special thing about Ellie's half birthday is that she shares it with her uncle's birthday! So we didn't celebrate her half birthday but we did celebrate Charles' birthday at Longhorn on Saturday. Ellie had a late night, but did extremely well! We haven't had her 6 month check up yet... so I'll update you on her stats later.

The real big news is that Ellie's first tooth is finally coming in! After several months of non-stop drooling, she has seized to drool obsessively and has broken her first tooth! The tip of her bottom left tooth is now cutting through. She never had a fever or seemed very ill. The worst part was just the drooling. I'm glad the end of the first teething experience is finally over, and if this is the worst of the many more teeth to come... I think I have it extremely easy!

Of course I have to leave you with some pictures:
Ellie got a hold of the camera:


Ellie is now spending more time on her tummy, occasionally. She still is only rolling over from front to back and I don't know if she ever will have a desire to go to her stomach. I know she could roll from back to front because she rolls to her side to get a toy all the time... only time will tell. Here is a shot I got of her on her belly (notice the drool):

And the best for last...

She's the cutest thing ever!

Yard Work

Zach and I (with the help of my parents) have finally finished our yard work for the Fall! FINALLY!
Here are the before shots:




Everything you see in these pictures are gone (except the oak tree in the middle of the yard)!
We have dug up everything in the front of our house and have planted bushes and plants we like! One thing we are extremely proud of is getting rid of this (not Kayla, the thing behind her!):

This is overgrown holly bushes and leftovers from a deck that was torn down long ago. We absolutely hated this thing and are so glad it is gone!
We also sewed grass seed and will hopefully see some grass in our yard instead of dirt! This makeover has taken up many of our weekends, but we are finally done! I will get you some after shots when the grass comes up... so look for them later!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

On Politics...

You probably have never heard me talk much about politics because I never really have been interested in them, until West Wing. Zach absolutely loves the TV series West Wing, so of course I had to watch it, and I ended up enjoying it as well. This show definitely taught me more about politics and increased my interest in political candidates.

So now more than ever, with the election approaching, I thought it appropriate to share some of my political opinions about some certain issues. (I bet Zach will have a lot more to say, especially when he realizes I have posted about this issue.)

I was eating lunch with a new friend of mine, Ashley, and we were talking about a political conversation she had with a few of her friends. She said she had a fundamental issue with Barack Obama because of his support on partial-birth abortions. Just to remind you, a partial birth abortion is an abortion that occurs while the baby is being born. They turn the baby around and then suck out it's brains to kill the child. Everytime I think about this it makes me extremely sad that a innocent child is killed and extremely angry that someone would actually agree to do this. Now I know that this is probably a hard decision that the mother and doctors made and they probably didn't do so lightly, but they did come to the conclusion to abort. Now back to Obama... he actually thinks this is not so much a problem and he trusts women to make the decision. This is the exact quote from the Democratic Primary Debate in South Carolina:
"Q: What us your view on the decision on partial-birth abortion and your reaction to most of the public agreeing with the court's holding?

A: I think that most Americans recognize that this is a profoundly difficult issue for the women and families who make these decisions. They don't make them casually. And I trust women to make these decisions in conjunction with their doctors and their families and their clergy. And I think that's where most Americans are. Now, when you describe a specific procedure that accounts for less than 1% of the abortions that take place, then naturally, people get concerned, and I think legitimately so. But the broader issue here is: Do women have the right to make these profoundly difficult decisions? And I trust them to do it. There is a broader issue: Can we move past some of the debates around which we disagree and can we start talking about the things we do agree on? Reducing teen pregnancy; making it less likely for women to find themselves in these circumstances"(www.ontheissues.org)

This logic just doesn't make sense. Can we really trust people to make the right decisions about life and death? If we had this logic, why do we have laws? Why is there a justice system? Could we not handle this a different way... such as making the adoption process easy for a mother?

I don't expect the next president to be able to change the law about abortion, but I do want the next president to have morals and values that will make this country a better place...
There are many other issues I have, but I'll leave it with that for now.

Monday, October 6, 2008

Squash... Yuck!

Ellie was introduced to acorn squash this past weekend. Her first reaction to it was quite normal:



The next day, my sister Carla came over to babysit and tried to give her some squash... however that was a disaster! Ellie would eat it, but would cry after it was put into her mouth. We were confused at first if she was just in a fussy mood or if she didn't like it. Well, I tried to give it to her again tonight and got the same reaction! I hope this isn't the beginning of refusing to eat her vegetables!

A Day in the Life of Ellie

So Ellie and I have been having some great, long quality time since Zach has been out of town during the week, and she hasn't been sleeping as much. I thought I would share a typical day for Ellie and I. Ellie usually wakes up around 8am, eats and then plays in her exersaucer for a little while. After about an hour and a half she is ready for a nap, so between 9:30-10 I feed her and put her down and she sleeps until 12-12:30. She then wakes up, eats and we either run errands, play together, read, or do anything we can think of. Here is a video of what she commonly does during the afternoon:

At about 2pm, she gets very unhappy. So typically we go on a walk if it's not raining! I think this is definitely Ellie's and Kayla's favorite part of the day (the walk that is). Between 3:30-4, I feed her again and put her back down for another nap. This is perfect since I tutor from 4-5 on Tuesdays and Thursdays. She usually sleeps until 5 or 6pm, and then I feed her again. If Zach is home, this is when he spends time with Ellie and when I cook dinner. It all depends on Ellie's mood what we do, sometimes we will just play together with random toys or she will play in her exersaucer or on the floor. Here she is having some fun in her exersaucer:

Around 7pm we give Ellie some solids. She absolutely LOVES this part of the day, I think I might have to start feeding her solids in the afternoon too because whenever we eat lunch or even breakfast she is wanting some food of her own! She doesn't last very long after we feed her, so we start getting her ready for bed. We put her in her sleeper, nurse her, and then read her "Goodnight Moon" (This is Zach's responsibility when he's in town). She is very happy at bedtime and sometimes it's hard for us to leave her, but she never cries for us and is asleep usually by 8pm! We have it so easy!

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Wedding Fun!

The wedding is over and now I can finally rest at home on the weekends :) My friends Jessie and Daniel had a beautiful outdoor wedding on Lake Badin. It was raining all weekend, but it just happened on Saturday at Badin Lake, there was no rain! So it ended up being perfect weather! My mom and Zach took care of Ellie while I was doing all the wedding festivities, but I did get a few moments with her on Saturday morning and at the reception. Here are some pictures from the wedding:
Here is the bride and groom in their first dance as husband and wife:

Zach and I and the back of Ellie's head:

Nana and not too happy Ellie:

Papa trying to make Ellie happy:

A good shot at my hairdo, which I loved:

Monday, September 29, 2008

BANANAS!

So as you know from a previous blog, we are introducing solids to Ellie. We started with rice cereal, which went great. She hasn't had any problems with eating the cereal, the only trouble we have had is that she wants to suck her thumb while she is eating! So after we introduced cereal, we went to apples, bananas, and sweet potatoes! We caught the bananas on video, watch how much she enjoys it:

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Fall Begins...

Yesterday was the first day of fall and what a beautiful day it was! It has been almost a month since the last post so we definitely are overdue. Ellie is growing like crazy and sleeping wonderfully 12 hours each night! She has also been teething, drooling through her bib and onesie leaving her soaking wet... I think her teeth might be coming through very soon since her gums are getting white and she has been extremely grumpy these past few days, getting frustrated when she is trying to bite things. Recently she has been saying her first mama's and dada's... of course only when she is upset most of the time.

This month has been extremely busy for Zach and I. I am in a wedding this coming weekend so I have had to travel home almost every weekend for wedding festivities. I cannot wait for this wedding to finally be here since it will be an outdoor wedding on a beautiful lake. This couple, Jessie and Daniel, have been together longer than Zach and I and it will be so special to see them finally get married. This is definitely the wedding season, we have had 10 invitations for these three months! Two of our friends tied the knot on September 13th at Duke Chapel, and it was GORGEOUS. Ellie did extremely well, thankfully since the littliest bit echoes in there. Zach and I were able to dance at the reception as soon as Ellie went to sleep... we had so much fun!

So I have to leave you with a video and a couple of pictures:
This video is of Ellie laughing at Kayla... she absolutely loves her and we can always rely on Kayla making her smile!



At the end of August, we went to the last Durham Bulls game... here is a couple shots we took. One of Zach in his free hat from Moes... and then one of Ellie in it :)




Here is a picture of Ellie in the cutest outfit ever (thanks to Nana):



After church on Sunday we go to Barnes & Noble to read before our Bible Study. Ellie take her nap during this time, last week she fell asleep on her daddy and we caught the special moment in this shot:

And last, here's a picture of me giving Ellie a kiss (notice her cute overalls and bow):


Hopefully we'll get some cute shots at the wedding this weekend! Tata for now...

Thursday, August 28, 2008

It's My Job To Brag

So I have to share with you how smart our little girl is! She is only 20 weeks old and she already knows what words mean and how to listen to mommy and daddy! Oh how proud I am to have such a smart little girl :) just watch and see for yourself...



ok maybe it was just a coincidence, but I'm still proud...

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Rolling Around

Ellie has been rolling from her front to her back for a few weeks now. We finally got it on video and wanted to share:

(don't worry Edward scissorhands didn't attack the back of her head, her hair apparently grows that way)

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Not Quite Wheaties

Today Ellie got her first taste of "solid food." We gave her an exact concoction of 1 tbls. rice cereal and 2 oz. millk...this lead to a substance that had no solid properties what so ever. We had no idea how she would respond b/c she is only 4 and a half months old but she has shown all the standard signs for being able to take that next step. Apparently she has been studying us at the table because she was a champ. She took the first few spoon fulls without a problem. We aren't positive about how much she actually ate (read drank) but she seemed to have no problem with the spoon or the high chair. Watch the videos to see how it went!


Thursday, August 21, 2008

4 months!

Ellie turned 4 months old August 11th! We went for her four month check up on August 13th... she is still perfectly healthy! She weighed in at 14 lbs. 5 oz. and measured 24.5 inches long placing her in the 70 percentile! We have been so blessed to have such a happy, beautiful, and most of all healthy baby! She did have to get a few immunizations at the check up. Here is the result:

This time Zach went along to the doctor and he was heartbroken to see her reaction to the shots. She barely cried, but Zach had a hard time seeing such an innocent baby intentionally getting hurt. What a sweet dad...