For the past few years I have been trying to learn on how to best handle conflict, mostly because there seems to be too much of it in my life (specifically my marriage- bringing two very different people together in a house seems to breed conflict, it's not just me right?). What I have learned is that conflict always begins with your feelings. I was reading today on Lysa TerKeurst's blog about conflict resolution and thought she said it perfectly:
"I had a choice to make. I could get all caught up in the emotion and make this a much bigger deal than it needed to be or I could sit with Jesus and ask for a better perspective.
Often I’ve chosen the emotional route. And honey let me tell you, that’s an exhausting road for sure. As I female I’ve traveled and will travel this road again. It’s part of my DNA and my PMS. But for this situation some rare rationality was tugging me to just sit with Jesus and seek wisdom.
As I sat, the Lord whispered into my heart a question, “What do you really want?”
“I want to pout and explain my feelings and pout some more.” But that wasn’t really true. That’s how I felt but that’s not what I wanted. There’s a big difference between those two. Identifying that difference would lead to a solution. And in the end, a good solution should always be the goal when tackling conflict.
Feelings should be indicators not dictators.They can indicate there are some emotions to process but not dictate how we act and react in a situation."
I've learned that I do tend to pursue conflict, because I have this need to be heard. I think that my feelings need to be known, an although this might be true, I seem to
It seems that my next step is figuring out how to process before reacting.... self-control. Lord, give me some self-control!
Maybe one day I'll get this figured out. Thankful for a husband and children who push me to grow, even though they come with conflict.